the strawberry plastic ring :)

hey guys… it’s me– and i do realize that i missed yesterday’s update. sorry about that. told ya in my previous post that i would be going out with some friends and i actually did yesterday.. luckily i finished all of my responsibilities so my mind wasn’t occupied while window shopping at ZARA.. lol

yes, if you saw my picture. (i’m sorry for the crappy quality. idk what’s wrong with my phone) and the title, you’ll know what i mean. yes, i’m currently obsessed with this ring. and it’s not actually something really precious. it’s plastic, it hurts my fingers with its rough edges and i do get a red circular mark once i take it off, but it is very valuable to me.

so yeah, this post is supposed to be posted yesterday but since i didn’t get to post it, i’m going to post it today 😉 i hope you enjoy it nonetheless.

yesterday, i went to Jakarta and hang out with some friends. well, we did nothing really… we went to this one mall and ate noodles + went to Honeymoon Dessert where i ate a bowl of watermelon tofu pudding. 🙂 yumm~~ subtly sweet.. very much like me. lol. and then we went to another mall to actually play bowling at first. but the plans changed a bit and instead we went into this game arcade. we all agreed to chip in and ride the Twister together. it was SO MUCH FUN!!! it was a short ride, and i had to pay a whopping Rp 30,000 for that ride which only lasted for 4 minutes… really expensive if you think about it… i was almost not going you know, but i thought … the hell with my pocket money which i’ve been saving since forever (you can tell that i’m still not okay with that; but *blows a sigh* it’s only thirty thousand. for friendship 😉 ) but i have to say that it was well worth the ride. not really the ride.. it’s not as exhilarating as riding it at a theme park but it is well worth the togetherness… i really find that valuable to me.

the rest of the credits were used up on taking our pictures taken. we all went into this small photo booth, cramped up and was like posing different and weird poses every time. it was crack-tastic!! i love it to the max. since we could not all get individual pictures ourselves, we’ve decided to post these pictures on our new classroom wall next year… yeap, on our grade 11 classroom window or something. the school lets us decorate each of our individual classes since we have a permanent classroom instead of moving from one class to the other. and yes, we’re going to totally stick up those pictures on the windows… ^^ for memories sake.

we also played this ‘hit’ game… idk what the real name for the game T.T sorry… but it’s this game where you try to stop the light at ‘Bonus’ to achieve 250 tickets. we didn’t get the bonus though… not our luck, but we did get a lot of tickets. we are thinking of spending those tickets since we are not frequent visitors of that particular game arcade… and when we were looking for these rings, i told my friends to just pick a ring for each of us– the ring acting as a friendship ring. everyone agreed and so we pick our plastic rings… each of us having different ‘charms’ (i’ll just call it that) attached to our own ring. mine’s a strawberry… not for any specific reasons.. i just thought that it was cute. i love this ring. idk how many times have i said it but i do xD

right. gonna write up my next update… the today update… yeay!!~~ wait up readers…  and stay tuned

-iggs

mood: happy

listening to: sang ‘Rasa Ini- Vierra’ with BFF on the way home… feels like karaoke 🙂 ~

being there for me.

straight to the point. have you ever doubt anyone in your life? of course you have… such a stupid question i’m asking. but, really, to what extent?

first off, let me remind you that i’m a really good person if it relates to hiding my feelings. like super good; and i know this from like lots of people. i don’t really believe them in a way, but i come to believe it now. i can just act so cheerful you’d think it’s my best day when deep inside, a storm is raging through me. being bullied in my early adolescent years and still now (even when my friends think that they are just humorless jokes) i find myself adapting to the situation. i’m in a condition where i’m forced to actually hide my true feelings, as for it to not interfere with society and the friends that i’m currently having.

this post concerns my BFF. her among others. as my previous post have stated, i was just home from this seventeenth birthday party. it was good, and the girl was pretty as i’ve mentioned, but is it just bad to say that i didn’t enjoy myself quite so much? i feel that she is leaving me. yes… leaving me. i don’t quite get it. we are BFFs. both of us knew that. but i feel like she was never there for me when i needed her, whereas i know i’m always there when she needed me. i always make sure that i’m available when she needs a shoulder to cry on, or a friend to laugh with. i know i’m always there… is she really keeping a distance from me? or am i just the one who’s thinking too much?

in truth, i felt a little envious today. she cared so much for other people, but somehow keeps forgetting me. is that what you call a best friend? i seriously do NOT want to doubt her… but i just can’t help myself. i’m human. not a deity. i feel like we’re drifting apart, and the first time i felt this feeling, i cried, pathetically, at night, when everybody was asleep.

there was once a quote saying… “best friends are not there to be inseparable.  they are two beings that are meant to be separated, but then would have nothing changed between them once they get back together”. i want to… no, i’m determined to make us like that. i may be boring, and i may not be the best friend anyone would ever have, but loyalty is something that i value. i’m still going to be here for her, even if she will not always be there for me. as sad as it may sound, i rather to 10 extremely hard math tests than find another best friend. let alone a best friend,  a regular friend itself is already really hard to find. and once a person founds it, she will treasure them, just as i would try as hard as i can to keep us this way.

to the BFF: i’ll be strong 😀 for both of us… and you will always be the same to me, even when i’m not anymore to you. it proves in my contacts. for your phone number will always be under the name of “BFF”

mood: honestly.. for this post– a little scared

listening to: my fingers running on my keyboard.