i haven’t blogged about this for a long time… it was hidden and forgotten and just, untouched. but at times it comes back to the surface, and stays there, like soap suds clogging the bath tub.
it’s been what… almost two years? and a year of not contacting each other, no pointless conversations, no nothing.
so i’m thinking… it must’ve been a heavy crush. heavier than what i thought.
but then i’m restraining it to just that. a crush. i might not think of it that way a long long time ago, but i can’t afford to think like that now. it’s been too long.
so no reservations. i cannot go on like this… i need to move on.