hello people… i’m actually multitasking right now. writing, while downloading music, while loading videos and while trying to practice my piano as well. so much to do but so little time.
ironically, i am actually having a holiday. yes, today’s officially the first day of my midterm break… but everything doesn’t go as to how i plan it to be. i spent my last week of school in a frenzy thinking that i might be able to have an actual rest in the holidays. i needed a holiday so badly, but now, it turns out that i won’t be having much of a holiday anyway. physics project is still looming and staring me in the eye. not to mention math. and then this painting which i have yet complete and then i just found yesterday that my grandpa is in the ICU, my grandma has stayed overnight in the waiting room of the hospital for four nights, while my uncle is in China and my motherless cousins by themselves at home. my dad’s here now to replace my grams in the hospital, which is why i’m going with him tonight to accompany him. i’m staring straight to a sleepless night once again. i wonder when i would really be able to rest right.
i want to help change a lot of things. i want to be of use to the people that i love. but at the same time, i’m just a 16 year old teenager. i cannot do anything that i wish to. do you know how it feels when you want to do something that you can’t? it feels frustrating. end of discussion.
but i’m complaining too much. i should just get to do it, you know? i should really stop blabbering and start doing those things. i’m going to practice just shortly after this, and then workout and then change and pack for the night. i just hope that this holiday wouldn’t go too fast so that i could actually finish things before having to go to school again. for the mean time, i’m bidding you goodbye. i might update a little later tomorrow. after i get home from Jakarta, i promise to write again 🙂
listening to: Ayyy Girl – JYJ ft. Kanye West