you know what.

i haven’t slept since 6 in the morning yesterday. i have been awake (and studying) for almost 40 hours.

remember when i told you i’d finish my log 2 even if it’s the last thing i do?

i meant it. i meant it and kept my word and i am beyond tired right now you have no idea.

i don’t understand people who can say: “i haven’t been sleeping for three days now.”

what. what did you just say.

i am human. humans need to sleep. humans need to sleep so that their old cells can die and be renewed and energy replenished and blood circulation goes well and the other good stuff that must be happening to my body when i’m sleeping.

so when my friend Mete told me to just shut down in the cafeteria floor i was seriously considering it.

but i did it. i finished my log 2. i crawled and i reached it. thank goodness for all that.

first samosa = legit McGillian

it’s so weird to think that only 8 hours ago i was just back from the library and now i’m here again. such a dedicated student, dad must be so proud of me. (-_-”) 

anyways.

it wasn’t supposed to be this cold today. i didn’t look at the weather forecast (my fault) as i really wanted to go to the library as fast as i could and so i left early, but i should have. i looked at it yesterday and it said the lowest will only come to nine degrees centigrade which is not bad considering the last couple of days… but lo and behold. 5 degrees celsius in the morning. i was positively freezing on the streets.

i did a lot of things yesterday… but i didn’t have the chance to write it down because i was preoccupied with some other things. namely trying to juggle my philosophy paper and revising my Japanese culture notes. but yesterday i had my first Samosa. (haaaaaa!~ *the heavens open*) i’m a legit McGillian now. apparently samosas is a big thing here when i didn’t even know what it was before coming to McGill. they have a facebook page for samosa sales and a twitter account! so i’m always up to date with samosa sales, and bake sales too (red velvet cupcakes yum)

i gave a samosa to someone less fortunate down Rue Peel as well. i’ve been meaning to do that for so long but i’m always having a dilemma with donating money to homeless people. at one hand, i wanted to at least do something for them, but at the same time, i don’t want to give them money on which they could spend on alcohol instead of what they really need.

so i gave him food, i hope he wasn’t offended. he didn’t seem to mind though, and even permitted me to take a picture of him. (: i want to give him more samosas next time… i only gave him one yesterday.

and on my way back (to the library. this morning) i found this tree just outside 688 Sherbrooke with very very small bird houses on it. i tried to take a decent picture but i don’t think it worked. the sky was too blue, and so the picture turned out dark. but that’s okay… (i guess) because i can still see the outline of it :/ see the little hanging triangle-rectangles? they’re the bird houses!!

 

now i must get back. have procrastinated for an hour even though it didn’t seem like it >.<

favorite magic word: i’m a ninja.

i have my philosophy paper due tomorrow as well as a Latin test.

meanwhile, my French teacher and Japanese studies teacher is already talking about future quizzes and review sessions for upcoming exams.

and on some other planet, my Linguistics prof decided to give us a conference project in addition to the midterm on November 5th.

what in the world is going on here.

…

it’s important for me to remember that it’s not only me who’s going through this. everyone’s going through all of this too. everyone’s going through all of this too. everyone’s going through all of this too.

we’ll all get through this.

*dies on my bed*

i just realized that for whatever reason, my body decides to only sleep for three hours last night.

i woke up thinking that i overslept… and then i was searching for my phone because that phone is my holy grail alarm clock. totally cannot lose that phone, and in the midst of searching for that phone in the dark, i realized that i’m not sleepy anymore. it’s just like my biological clock rang and it’s not even 6 am or anything. it’s not even 5. it’s 3 freakin’ AM and i was wide awake like i was in an energy drink marathon. and no, i don’t drink energy drinks so that’s kinda a moot point.

today was okay, i guess. pretty messed up if i must say so myself, but okay. Latin is obviously getting harder by every lecture and i’m so behind on my readings on philosophy and linguistics. not to mention i already have other readings for my Japanese culture studies so i’m so stoked i don’t know how to do all of this at once.

and then there’s this thing with my SIN card… i tried to apply for it and actually walked a good 30 minutes to get to that place only to be told that i had to go back and fill in another document. i’m sort of glad that i it was literally just five minutes ago that i realized i only slept for three hours or else i would’ve broke down then and there. but then of course God is forever nice and kind, i met little miracles along the way home to dearest Carrefour Sherbrooke. i got  a free hug for once, in the McLennan Library. there’s this bunch of girls wearing ‘Free Hug’ tags and i was like: “i need a hug.” (.__.) so i got one for free and… it’s an instant pick me up if you know what i’m saying. and then when i was walking pass lower field someone actually shouted at me and said: “hi cutie!”

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okay. that was like the most awkward thing because i didn’t know him and he obviously doesn’t know me. but it really is funny how those little kind of funny and ridiculous things can instantly makes you happy. and of course, when i got back, i immediately made myself a hot chai milk tea and watch as much youtube videos as i want. and then i went downstairs to get some dinner with Joelle… i got poutine, and for those of you who doesn’t know what poutine is, well, poutine is this extremely fatty meal you can ever have, consisting of basically fries, gravy and melted cheese. a Montreal specialty, but it’s really not something you want to have for dinner. i thought i’m going to just let myself have comfort food on a Friday night but now i have stomachaches damn it.

yeay~ so that’s an account of my day… nothing too serious or interesting. i may as well take a hot shower and go to sleep, and wake up  at like… idk 3-ish? to read more philosophy just because the greater good comes to me faster before the break of dawn, i guess.

toodles blog. i’ll update on the promised post tomorrow, so stay tuned

xx

tired and missing home

missing my family more than ever. it’s not that i don’t miss them before this, it’s just that i miss them more now.

and i have two theories for this.

(one) i really miss them. this is by far the longest period of time i have been away from my family and i miss them dearly. to know that i still have seven months to go is …. excruciating. (which is why it’s best for me to just not think about it)

(and two) i think i’m getting sick. this week, (yes, i’m speaking of the monday and tuesday that i have just gone through) has been so exhausting that it was ridiculous. it’s 1:58 in the morning and i just got back from the library. having done that for two days in a row… it’s exhausting. nuff said. and because of the change of weather everyone’s sneezing a lot and everyone seem to just catch a cold :/ i hate that. i don’t want to catch a cold. makes my head hurts. and it practically makes me miss my family more… it’s like the sense of having people taking care of me when i’m sick. i’ll not have it here. plus, my stomach’s reacting weirdly this past couple of days. (again)

and yeah, basically that. i just have a lot of things to do, plus 24 hours a day is just too little a time to finish all of this monstrosity that i can see is piling up on me. but i guess i wouldn’t want more than 24 hours a day. it may be a lot more tiring than i think it is.

on a less random note, SLUM, the undergraduate Linguistics society at McGill held a gathering of sorts at Gert’s (the campus pub) and so i had free beer and pizzas for dinner! yeay~ i’m always up for free stuff. especially food. and books. just that i haven’t found any free books anywhere yet (and i might not, mind you) –but i guess this little piece of information is also something random.

i’ll write soon enough. when my Intro to Japanese Culture test is done and over with, and i’m done sorting out on the other little things (or maybe, the not so little things) i’ll write the post that i promised. i haven’t forgotten, you see (:

xxx (extra ‘x’ for the extra patience)

the lights hitting the trees @ Leacock

i am, as of now, in Leacock building, waiting for my Latin class that will commence in 20 minutes, and which we will start to learn Module 3. i was skimming through it and found out that we were going to learn about verb conjugations which, on first glance, i know is going to drive my mind, body and soul (and my memory device) into insanity in the next couple of days.

so i closed the module and resort to talking to you, as i always do when i’m even mildly depressed. i’m currently watching the light hitting the trees, noticing how the light strengthens and dims in intervals, and realized that today’s a cloudy day. not to mention very blustery…. the pattern of the changing lights makes me sleepy– but that shouldn’t surprise me so much as everything makes me sleepy nowadays. even chewing gum couldn’t help reduce my sleepiness. if only i didn’t care so much for my readings, i wouldn’t have been so sleep deprived right now.

i know i still haven’t fulfilled my promise of my rather ‘adventurous’ weekend, but we’ll see how it goes okay? because even though i have no midterm tests for any of my courses, i have Latin quizzes every Friday, a French test tomorrow, an Intro to Japanese Culture test the day after tomorrow, and a Philosophy paper of Aristotle due before Thanksgiving. it’s actually okay, considering the work load i receive during high school, but to do those assignments and the two dreadful tests well, i need to do my readings. and of course, i need a good dose of optimism to get through that, so i might be posting those posts rather late, but i’ll not forget (:

now that i’ve talked to you, i’ve channeled my inner morbid-ness and could continue on with Latin which is now starting in 15 minutes. (it was 20 minutes before writing this post. )

xx

it’s just a week left.

a week… left.

why. WHY ?!

why can’t i just muster the rest of my energy and quit being a lazy couch potato?!

why can’t i just do my work and be done with it!!!!!! ?

i won’t even bother to put my signature on this rant. it’s too frustrating. 

09/01/12 second semester

last night i was mentally analyzing the monstrosity of what i will face in this second semester.

like really. i was thinking how i will get through all of this while also still keeping my daily routine and still doing Mandarin lessons and piano lessons.

i really have no idea… but there’s no turning back now. let’s just face life everyday as it comes and enjoy it.

first day of second semester !! see ya b~

under the christmas tree

Hey blog… Guess where I am now….

I am currently at home, yes… But I’m not in my bedroom, I’m not in mom’s bedroom nor am I in the kitchen (like how I mostly am in cases where I’m severely hungry at this time of day -_-)… I’m underneath the christmas tree, thinking just how the christmas tree looks so beautiful from down here even though it’s not actually a real tree.. It’s a plastic tree.

Today’s Christmas Eve, and I haven’t been blogging because I was busy. Honestly, I am busy. This might just be the most stressful holiday I have so far and this is because of my college applications. I don’t know what’s worst really… To have my heads crowded for the SAT learning about urine ‘fine-tuning’ or that never ending nervous slash frightened feeling of not getting my application in on time. Sure, it’s still a week from now, but still… This will be a major thing for my future. *shrugs*

But today’s Christmas Eve, so I’m speed learning ‘Hark The Herald’ on the piano for my sister’s so called performance tomorrow… Raissa loves to perform…

I think it’s time for me to go now…. *sigh* I still need to practice a couple more times, and I still have to check on common app to make sure my transcripts are there already…. I hope.
See you tomorrow… Have a merry Christmas Eve everyone.

Lots of love, iggy. xoxo

p.s. The picture did no justice whatsoever to the view… .___.

uptight

http://doodleaday.wordpress.com/2010/04/21/doodle-431-hamster-wheel/

as ridiculous as this might sound… i feel tired. and in case you are still indifferent to it, blog, i’m actually in the middle of my holidays. tired during the holidays… what kind of life am i living?

maybe it’s all my fault. maybe it’s just me being too uptight and prim… or maybe it’s due to my excessive use of exaggeration, but as much as i want to ‘let my hair down’ and loosen up, i still feel anxious. maybe it’s the disturbed aura, or whatever it is that my mom calls it.

anyways, during the holidays, i became an even busier mandarin teacher. the real mandarin teacher told me that Raissa is going to learn in an advanced class and this calls for extra mandarin lessons with me. not that i’m complaining.. i’m really proud of her, but i can’t deny that the action shortens my already very short free time even more.

and okay. regardless of what ANYONE says.. I DON’T ENJOY college research and applications. as such people… the process isn’t as short as we imagine it to be. lots of scholarship research, CV formatting, personal statement modifications, some more personal essays to write.. oh~ and don’t forget about all the SAT tests that i have to do to get into those universities.

i wrote more emails that i probably have for the past 3 years, the most math problems that i have attempted to do in the past month (remember, attempt. it takes a lot of energy for me to at least attempt to do something–let alone do math problems) … really. really, blog.

it’s as if work is simply never done. always running on the hamster wheel, not stopping for the fear of slipping and falling.

*sigh* what else is there to say?? *drags self away*