“but right now we are alive. and in this moment, i swear… we. are. infinite.”

My mind played hopscotch. My brother… football… Brad… Dave and his girlfriend in my room… the coats… the cold… the winter… “

Autumn Leaves

“… don’t tell anyone… you pervert… Sam and Craig… Sam… Christmas… typewriter… gift… Aunt Helen… and the trees kept moving… they just wouldn’t stop moving…

so I laid down and made a snow angel.
The policemen found me pale blue and asleep.

plain idiocy.

i just watched a horror movie today. and all i can think of right now is: “why am i so stupid?”

well, not exactly watch. i peeked and squinted–that’s about it really, but it was hideous. what’s funny is that my friend watched it full on like it was nothing. i must be the ultimate chicken. yes, that must be the reason why i am scared of all things paranormal.

i went to play to a friend’s house who’s going to go abroad next week for uni, so me and couple of friends decided to gather up and just hang out or something… and then we ended up watching a horror movie. the movie was Insidious, a pretty old horror movie, but regardless of the fact that Anie watched it twice and said that the ghost slash demon is, and i quote, “a funny looking lady with bad red face painting and sharp nails”, i just couldn’t… couldn’t stomach it.

the last movie that i watched was Drag Me to Hell , and even then i started shouting like at the first five seconds of the movie-when the opening credits had this ‘Drag Me to Hell’ title popping out of nowhere with ugly black and red strikes on it. and you know what? it has been three, almost four years, since i last watched that movie and i still CANNOT forget the name of the demon lady who was the main ‘ghost star’ of the movie. her name was Sylvia Ganush, and i will never name my daughter Sylvia. ever. even though it is a beautiful name, i just… i can’t.

the thing about horror movies that makes me cringe is that i know someone would die. and i’m not stupid, i know that even though things might turn out to be better it will ONLY be a partial happy ending, and furthermore, i know that in the end the demon will still be there. it will not leave the family, or the girl, or the baby, or the boy, alone. not really. and that is scary. the madness it projectes is literally just… unhinging. why can’t horror movies have a completely good ending for once when the ghost will not pop up again at the ending credits? it’s like the producers are encouraging people to believe that whatever we do, things will turn out for the better for the demon. and that sucks man… the regular humans should win too, even if just for the sake of consoling little clucking chicks like me.

it leaves me so depressed in thinking that, here i am, scared of the nightmare that i might have to go through for watching a horror movie while the producers are out there somewhere, happy that their movie made a hit in theaters and earning big money.

and you know things can’t get uglier when a character is dragged to an otherworldly realm while screaming a blood-curdling scream. that people… that is when i die a little inside.

never. never again.

“You shouldn’t be making promises that you can’t keep.” “But it’s the best one.”

i know there are many… many quotes coming from the new ‘The Amazing Spider-Man’, but this is the one that is stuck in my head. this is from the ending scene where he went to class late (again) and his teacher scolded him for it, telling him that he shouldn’t be late next time, and he said ‘I promise I won’t.’ (or something along that line) his teacher then said ‘you shouldn’t be making promises that you can’t keep.’ and he whispered ‘but it’s the best one’. it must’ve been a reply to what his teacher said, but he also said it because he’s intended to break the promise he made to Gwen’s dad before he died in the movie, to leave Gwen out of this. oh how i love double meaning replies.

this quote is stuck in my head because it has always been my principle that “rules are made to be broken, not promises.” and now Spiderman is saying that the promises you can’t keep are you actually the best ones. let me tell you this, i’m easily influenced. and let me tell you this as well, maybe in the position of Gwen Stacy, i’d be happy that he said that, but for now, i stand by my principles. that, no, Spiderman, promises are not made to be broken. … and now i’m rambling.

anyways~ you’ll know that later when you watch the movie. and you must see that movie people because oh my God, it’s a good movie. however, you can’t exactly take my word for it because i’ve only seen the first Spiderman movie, and this is just a remake of it. my friends said that the second and the third one is not as good, so i didn’t mind. i love this one, and as far as i remember, it has been ages since i last wrote a movie review. so this is going to be a review post. well, not really a review, just about anything that i want to say really, or write… so here goes.

first: the coupling.

if you see my previous post (good timing, huh? i didn’t know i’d be watching Spiderman, like, today), you’d know that i pointblank ship them like Captain Jack Sparrow ship his Black Pearl. i mean, we know that Andrew Garfield and Emma Stone is on and off screen couples, so that’s obvious why the chemistry is just so… chemically exciting in the movie. i was already a fan of Emma Stone when she starred in Easy A… no i was actually obsessed. she endorsed this Revlon Lip Butter thing and when it came to my country (made available that is), i immediately bought two. just because, ya know? even from the interviews that i saw of her, i can tell that she’s really beautiful and witty and the type who keeps you on your toes, so i google-d Andrew Garfield when i heard rumors that they were dating. they met in the Spiderman movie screening, and immediately i knew i had to see the movie. i had to.

it doesn’t disappoint. all through the movie, all i can think of is: how on earth am i going to be able to write a romance like the ones that exist between these two couples? both between Peter Parker and Gwen Stacy as well as between Andrew Garfield and Emma Stone… i guess it’s a thing all aspiring authors share. because you can see that the chemistry is distinctively different between the Peter Parker/ Gwen Stacy pairing and the Andrew Garfield/ Emma Stone pairing–obviously because one is acted and one is… a real life matter… but still, maybe because they both do have feelings for each other, the romance that exists between those two couples are sort of bridged. i don’t exactly know how to explain it, but i’m a die hard fan of romance, and i know chemistry when i see one. so that’s that.

second: the action.

i mean, it’s Spiderman. the romance is supposed to take the back seat, but of course for me, the romance is always the highlight.

-_- hopeless romantic. don’t ask.

but really, compared to the first Spiderman, you can tell that the action stuff here is far better. maybe because technology has developed greatly in the past few years, and you can’t exactly watch the first Spiderman in 3D, so that’s a plus for this movie. i’m especially intrigued by the spider webs… the spider webs that looks like guitar strings, but tighter and much much stronger. as always, with all Spiderman movies, the fun part is watching the process in which the loner Peter Parker transforms into the all too cool Spiderman. it’s like ‘ooh! that’s Spiderman’ idk if it’s just me, but it seems like the author of the comic series got lucky. because Spiderman sounds cool, and Batman too, but that’s another thing. imagine if you got ‘horseman’ or ‘dogman’ or even ‘lizardman’, that’s just weird.

aaannd~ i’m done! that’s all that i wanted to say, or write. i think it’s a pretty short post… or is it not?

oh, and one more thing. what happened to his parents? by that i meant Spiderman’s parents. because they kept on saying things like ‘have you told him about his parents…’ and i’m like what exactly happened to his parents?! ARGH *pulls hair* you’re not supposed to do that in movies. keep that in mind directors! you’re basically mentally tormenting your audience and you do not want to do that. you do not.

anyways, see you lovelies next time… hopefully next time i’ll be writing because i feel inspired, and is progressing with my own story instead of doing another review on things that are born from other people’s seriously awesome creativity.

xx

http://pemberley-state-of-mind.tumblr.com/post/2471916059

http://theflapofrabdolph.tumblr.com/post/19111663812

http://www.fanpop.com/spots/pride-and-prejudice/images/27636924/title/pride-prejudice-fanart

i can never have enough of Pride and Prejudice. 

whether i resort to re-reading my well read novel or watching again my favorite remake of the movie,

watching the stares and the dances and imagining the awkward touches…

it feels like home. 

Voldemort can never be more charming.

Ralph Fiennes. (pronounced: Rafe Fines) right. he’s the man. we need more people like him. there’s just something about him and the way he sees the world that is very appealing to me. he’s brilliant and he’s composed. it’s not everyday that the world greets a person who can act out the mysterious Count Laszlo de Almasy and then the next day act out the positively unhinging Lord Voldemort. it’s like complete madness! i love him in The English Patient, i love him in Oscar and Lucinda, i love him in Maid in Manhattan, i love him in Red Dragon and he makes a fantastic cruel Duke in The Duchess. i don’t love him in Harry Potter, but that shows just how successful he is in playing the part.

that video up there is one very interesting 38 minute video. i thought it would be a drag, but on the contrary, it is very engaging. maybe what attracted me most to him is that he is the perfect embodiment of what is lost in my generation. That sense of being ‘awkwardly charming’ as the interview puts it. people now tries too hard to be chatty, to be all sociable that they forgot that awkwardness has its own beauty. even though i haven’t had the chance to experience that kind of awkward charming-ness, i miss it… and the fact that i may never encounter something like him is really frustrating. so here’s to you Mr. Fiennes. may you continue to be greater than ever.

“when love feels like magic, it’s called destiny. when destiny has a sense of humor, it’s called serendipity.”

the holiday’s near, blog…

next saturday, i’ll have my SAT subject tests.

the next next saturday, i’ll have my ACT.

and then the monday after that next next saturday, i’ll be having my final semester test.

and then after that, it’ll be the long anticipated holiday.

Christmas is coming so soon… i still remember decorating the Christmas tree like it was only yesterday. time moves so so fast. when the holiday comes, i’ll be scouring for movies. Serendipity, or that other movie that i have featured… i forgot the title -_- but definitely Serendipity. i’m looking forward to seeing John Cusack and Kate Beckinsale act together. and a lot of people have reckoned it’s a blasphemy that a romantic, like myself, have not watched Serendipity.

*sigh* let’s fight y’all… counting to the days where i will finally have my holidays.